Monday, May 11, 2009

4 days left...

I said I was going to update more and then I stopped again. Spring semester is ending and it seems to have snuck up on me. I am working on packing and studying for finals all at once. Hopefully that goes well I think I am making progress on both fronts. I am not quite ready to leave Manhattan yet am also excited to go back and see friends back home. Next year a lot of my friends won't be back because several are studying abroad. Sad for me, but exciting for them. I'll miss seeing them though and it means I won't see some good friends for a year! Friends back home are going away for adventures this summer as well so that's kind of sad that I'll miss out on seeing them for a bit too. Can't be every where at once though. Overall I think this was a good year and a good semester. I had some set backs, but I made due and that's all you can really do.

Not sure if I will end up working two jobs this summer or not. It depends on how my schedule works out. I suppose it won't kill me to have some time off to have some fun this summer though either. Also I thought about possibly taking a yoga class over the summer in the mornings if I don't get a second job. I realize that is spending money, but it's a good form of fitness and I enjoy yoga. I enjoy the exercise part rather than the "Breathe! Think of your third eye! Find inner peace!" I know the spirituality is a big part of it for a lot of people, but it doesn't particularly interest me. To each his own.

4 finals and 4 days of classes left. Fly out in 5 days, I hope I get everything packed before then!

Monday, April 27, 2009

Joined the Ranks

I have had a Twitter account for a while but only got into updating it about 2 weeks ago and now I'm obsessed. It's a pretty strange concept, but it's fun. Here is my Twitter if you want to follow:

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Of Course They Are Playing "The Notebook"...

I end up watching the Notebook on Lifetime (which is enough to mock me as just by saying that) and I always think I don't like the Notebook then I see part of it and I'm like oh wait their cute. Then the old people come on and interrupt the story and I remember why I think it's bad. I know that's the whole point of the film like love is timeless and all that but I hate it. No one wants to see the old people who seem to be doing terrible acting jobs in my opinion. Is it really dementia or is she just a terrible actress for that role? Either way I feel like I should like the notebook, but I just can't. If you cut it up about an hour of the whole film is actually with the characters telling their love story the rest depressing and garbage. I am sure this puts me in the insensitive category, but do I get back in it when I mention that I was in fact watching Lifetime?

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Ugly is Pretty

Weird possibly ugly leggings. Love' em.


Took my math exam and....fairly, no, 99% positive I failed it. I am really disappointed in myself and I don't know how I could have prepared more. I did extra assignments, practice problems, hours of studying, and still I fail.

At this point it seems that I should be used disappointment, but it still stings quite a bit. Lately everything has felt like one struggle after another and I seem rather alone on my uphill climb that feels more like I am walking backwards. I've had a bit of financial troubles trying to figure out how I am going to pay for school and it's hard when the financial aid office at my college doesn't help or give me any guidance and I don't know anyone else who is paying for school on their own. I believe in my education and am willing to do whatever it takes to make sure I graduate, but sometimes everything gets overwhelming and it's hard to deal with. I feel like I have to study more then anyone else and yet I still do worse. It's disheartening to sit next to someone who misses classes, doesn't do homework, doesn't study, yet gets a better score than you on an exam. I'm exhausted and don't know what else to do. This isn't just about my math class even, I don't do stellar in any of my classes yet I feel like I put my all in. While everyone else seems to get away with the partying college experience I work and focus on school work and up coming up short every time. There must be something I am doing wrong, but I don't know how to improve myself.

I'm constantly told that having strong work ethic is going to get my far in life and that test scores won't matter in the real world. Well, I have yet to see that as true in anyway. Money is the new test scores in the real world in my opinion and I am at the bottom of the barrel in that department as well. Currently my outlook looks like mounds of debt for my future which I will attempt to pay off with out defaulting (a HUGE fear of mine. If I fail with money I have no back up and no family to bail me out when times are tough so can't wait for that when I graduate...) and continuing to work hard and watch other pass me up effortlessly.

Future looks pretty dull at the moment. I'm going to continue to work hard, but I'm tired and only getting more exhausted. I'm determined to finish school to show everyone I can do it even if I am not anything special in academics. Someone has to be floating around in the middle or the bottom and it seems the reality of my place there is setting in.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Tomorrow Decides My Fate

Big day tomorrow! I am taking a math exam and I HAVE to pass it! I have been working really hard on learning the material and doing practice problems, redoing homework problems, memorizing formulas, ect. Hopefully I am ready! I just have to manage to stay calm and keep myself together and I should be okay. I don't expect to do great (even though anyone else who studied as much as I did probably would do well because they are normal), but I just want to do decent. I HAVE to pass this class and I refuse to fail after the hard work I have been putting into it. Wish me luck! I'll need it. Here is hoping I do well.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

U-S- of A...Get it together already!

Quick Update so that I actually make progress on updating! Watched Miss USA tonight to see the Veronicas perform and they were amazing as usual. Loved the outfits. Jess's pants (or leggings?) with sequins were fabulous, I want some. I was kind of voting for Miss Utah out of the final 5 because she was pretty damn hot (well Miss USA hot because all those girls look alike pretty much. Wave hair, lots of make up, sparkles, ect.) and who knew anyone who looks like that could come from Utah? I am slightly impressed. Slightly.

Sorry the video is such bad quality! They are still fabulous.

In other news Miss California was asked how she felt about gay marriage and she said she did not approve and was promptly booed. I have to say I am shocked because she is representing California and I would think she would be more forward thinking and accepting. Enough is enough with not allowing gay marriage. Even if you are obsessed with the idea of marriage being only between a man and a woman (which is ridiculous, but if that's our claim to why it should not be) think of it in simple legal terms. If you are gay you still pay taxes and thus you deserve to have the same tax rights as everyone else! Married couples get tax breaks, why should a gay couple be denied this? They pay taxes too. Otherwise if it upsets people so much to ruin the "sanctity of marriage" -which is total crap because I think we ruined that with our 5 second Vegas weddings, VH1 specials, and the Bachelor - you should see that gays deserve the same legal rights as everyone else. We are all the same doesn't matter who you love. There is my big stance.

For all those that didn't see the tiara and sequin fest (bad quality again ugh):

Monday, April 13, 2009

Returning from Nowhere

I haven't posted in ages and I feel like that should change. I am pretty sure no one actually reads my blog because there are never any comments. Even before I stopped posting for over a month. I am going to try and make a change in that area and turn this around by posting again. Not that I have any profound things to say, but I hate to watch my little blog go to waste.

Currently I am trying to memorize a speech for my Public Speaking class. It's not going well and I am pretty sure I am going to get a B even if I do better than I expect to and surprise myself. My professor is so nit picky that I can see myself getting any exceptional grade.

As of this morning I am obsessed with Twitter. I had it before, but I didn't care much about it and rarely updated (sounds familiar doesn't it...). Now I am all about it, but we shall see how long that lasts. The Veronicas are on it though so that's pretty exciting to see their Twitter posts, those girls are awesome. I hope I get tickets to their concert this summer.

Just came back from my spring break and it's been a bit hard to try and adjust to my school work load and sleeping pattern again. Ugh, I'm losing motivation. I'll admit though I'm pretty crazy over that boy right now. <3

Monday, March 2, 2009

The American Dream

I was at work on Sunday at Bloomingdales and witnessed the most appalling display that I will now share with all of you because it was too great to not share.

My department is located near the UGG department in shoes and I watched this girl who was probably anywhere between 14-16 years old. She was with her little sister who was probably 9-11 and the older sister was trying on Uggs. The girl ended up selecting two pairs of Uggs and called her mother on her iPhone to tell her to meet them upstairs to pay for the shoes. The mother shows up and takes the two shoe boxes and goes to pay for them. The two daughters are standing there talking as the oldest one is also texting away and the mom comes back with the shoes saying "I didn't know it was that much, I'm not buying you both pairs it's too expensive. Pick one."

The oldest daughter flips out. She starts whining and demanding to get both and how unreasonable the her mother is being. The mother keeps insisting she only get one pair and the daughter screams no at her and how mad she is and the mom says that's it they are leaving and the daughter isn't getting anything. The little sister tries to mediate as the mother walks over to stand by the escalator to wait and asks the older sister which pair she liked better if she HAD to choose. The older sister snaps that she wants both and isn't not getting one. The older girl stalks off to sit down in the shoe department with the two boxes and starts texting away. The mother comes over and tries to hand her a stack of bills, but the girl screams at her and yells at her to get away from her. The mother gets fed up and says they are leaving and walks away. The little sister comes over to the older sister and tries to mediate again, but the older sister tells her to just go with their mother. The little girl goes over to the mother who hands her the stack of bills to give to the older sister and then takes the escalator down. The little sister takes the money to the older sister who takes it this time and then the little sister leaves.

Here's where it gets more insane. The older sister counts the money (it is a stack of 20's literally) and then starts muttering angrily and calls her mother on the phone in which she screams, and these are her exact words:

"You only gave me $300! You know that's not enough for both pairs! I need $400. Give me $400 dollars"

The mother says something on the other line and the girl responds:

"Yeah well I was supposed to be at Sara's at 3:00 and it's already 3:30 so I am already a half our late! At this rate I wont' be there until 4:00."

Mother says something and daughter responds with (here is the clincher):


The girl hung up the phone in a huff and then sat there for a bit texting before picking one of the shoe boxes up and buying just one pair and leaving.

This is an excellent study on parenting isn't it? Even though her daughter screamed at her and swore at her she still gave her $300 dollars and she still got something. Excellent. I mean clearly this girl wasn't a spoiled little brat, no she just really likes her Uggs.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Top 10

Sorry I haven't posted in such a long time! I have been trying to readjust my schedule to having a job and still having time to do homework. I decided I'd do a little list of 10 to catch up on me:

1. I am suddenly obsessed with the song "Landslide" by Stevie Nicks

2. Saw this video and thought it was very hilarious, check it out

3. Saw a lot of people with the "ash mark" on their foreheads walking around and I didn't understand for a while and then I realized the day before was Fat Tuesday so it was Ash Wednesday. Being Catholic has taught me something at least.

4. Found vegetarian chili and was so excited! It was soooo good. Oh I have missed you chili and I didn't even know it.

5. Was given a copy of a Michael Bubble album. Me and 40 year old women everywhere are rejoicing.

6. I decided I could wear 3 or 4 inch heels to work if I was only working a 4 hour long shift. I did fine until I had to go home and could barely walk to the subway and from the subway home. Guess, I'm not much of a lady. I feel slightly crippled still.

7. I don't get paid until next Friday and until then I have about $30 to my name. Do you hear that FAFSA?

8. Things are going over all really well and I'm trying to not freak out and screw them up like I normally do.

9. Recently I have become more interested in this straightener that dries your hair as you straighten it. My room mate has one and I am rather interested. Seems it would save time and possibly cause less damage to my sad hair.

10. Did you watch the video on 2? Because you really should. I am hoping to go on a little adventure in April and the details are in the works.

Monday, February 23, 2009

Bug Pug

Hahaha. I can't get enough of the pugs in costumes. It's just too hilarious. Clearly I spend too much time online looking at pug pictures.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Grade D

Today in my Product Knowledge class we were going over our current unit on Gemstones, settings, metal hardware, ect. with an emphasis for that day on Diamonds. My professor whom is very nice, but has a very thick German accent (which is semi-hilarious and makes me want to shout out "Fraulein") kept talking about how when we "get our diamonds" and when "we tell a man what diamonds to get us." as if this was key to the unit. I get the association with diamonds and engagement rings and the whole "diamonds are a girl's best friend" thing. However, I have never been one of those girls that talks about their future wedding all the time and what they will demand their engagement ring to look like. I don't mind that much when other people talk about it even, unless it's silly 19 to 20 year old girls who act like marrying their New Jersey boyfriend is for sure going to happen and they will immediately have the dream life.

Lucky me, just such girl was sitting next to me. This girl was a diamond expert! Another class she previously remarked how though her boyfriend had not proposed yet they had talked about marriage and his grandmother had shown her the family ring to ask her if she wanted it. What? Oh, and it's a beautiful ring from the 1920's and will just look perfect. What again? My question is does her boyfriend even know about this whole "promise of marriage"? Probably not. Poor fool probably only thinks as far as the next keg party he is going to. This girl knew everything about diamonds too! Clearly one of those girls that goes into Tiffany's at age 13 and tries on rings so she knows what her future engagement ring looks like. Those girls scare me. Marriage talks and all that make me very uncomfortable as is (more so than most people I am sure), but the whole thing was absurd. She had a comment on everything the teacher said. Such as "I prefer the princess cut", "I don't like white gold settings, only platinum will do", "D or E color is all I will take otherwise it's just tacky", and "I wouldn't except a diamond below VVs1 grade and even that is pushing it". If you know all of those terms already you either just LOVE diamond shopping, took Product Knowledge at some point, or are ready to kidnap the first boy you meet and make him propose to you. Which is what I think my professor was suggesting...Clearly I am supposed to find a boy and immediately hand him a print out of the diamond design I picked out online then bother with names and other details later.

We were also asked the class before to bring in any diamonds we had to examine. Any diamonds we had? I'm 19 years old, I don't have a box of diamonds or precious stones sitting around in my dorm room! Sure enough miss "princess cut" brought some in and also proceeded to talk about how she also has a star sapphire, but that was too rare to bring in. Guess, I missed that birthday where I am supposed to receive tons of jewels.

On a side note I think I am becoming a bit of a Daisy Lowe fan. Normally I don't care about models at all or socialites, yet I have kind of fallen for liking Daisy Lowe. She does have some good style, ahhhh...I'm getting sucked into my school environment of fashion craziness = model obsessions.

Have also been looking at the shows on (the best source ever for Fashion Week pictures I swear!) and must say I am liking what I am seeing so far. Fall 2009 is going to be awesome.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009


I finally got a job and I am very excited about this. I've been applying to any and every place under the sun pretty much every day and now finally I have a job! I will be working for Max Studio both at their store location and at Bloomingdales. I am looking forward to getting back to work because I desperately need the money. Plus, I don't think me having too much free time is a good idea. I will have to re-adjust my schedule to make sure I get all my homework done still, but I think I have it down pretty well so far.

On a side note, I am lusting after these shoes! Still I do not intend on buying them even when I start getting my paychecks because I really want to try and save more!

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Happy Valentines Day!

It's the day about love. Go eat some candy.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Who Needs A Title?

Despite all my irrationality and the craziness that has been going on I think for once things have been talked out and I am okay with the results. In fact I feel more sure of things than I ever was before. It has been such a crazy week! I am glad it's going to be the weekend and right now I really feel like things are going well. Glad everything got worked out.

Hot Dogs! (Pun Intended)


Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Coffee Day

Had today off as my "work day" (if I had a job I would be working on this day, but since I am unemployed I am free) and was in a rather good mood when I woke up because I had resolved some things the day before. I wanted to go to the gym today, but I thought it didn't open until 9 am and then I though oh wait no it's not until 11 am because that is when it opens on the weekend. At 10 am I looked up what time the gym opened and it said it opened at 7 am! I had just been waiting for it to open all that time and it had been opened the whole time! I felt quite foolish. Went to the gym and ended up working out for 2 hours. I lost track of time while I was there which pretty much never happens.

Came back from the gym and checked my email to get distressing news...No that's not the correct way to describe it. It wasn't distressing, it was just something I hadn't expected and I was taken a back because by and made me very emotional. Hence my earlier post I supposed. Thankfully I had my coffee and urban outfitters Wednesday meeting with Charlie. Which is always so nice because what is better than coffee and urban outfitters? To me there isn't anything better.

I bought a belt for $5 and a pair of black skinny pants for $10. Yes, I have no job and that should be food money, but I couldn't help it. I haven't bought something for myself in like 4 months. Plus I kind of need a pair of black pants and I intend on wearing them to my job interview tomorrow, so I am justifying them with that. I need a job, but I will miss my coffee dates with Charlie when I am employed. Money is needed though to even have coffee though, must remember that.

If That's How It's Going to Leave

"If you love something you should let it go." Isn't that what everyone says? I think I have let everything go that I ever loved and never once asked someone to stay and I'm am completely used to the concept of leaving. I expect leaving. Once again I am letting go because how can you ever hold on to something if you know you can help them by not doing that? I think people should do what's best for themselves. So go ahead and go and I'm not asking for anyone to stay.

Thursday, February 5, 2009


I was mildly obsessed with Pocahontas when I was 7 and very much wanted to have hair like her. Long, black, having a life of it's own as it spirals in the wind and all that. I dyed my hair black at one point, but my hair has never successfully grown long. The one and only time I went to Disneyland was the year Pocahontas came out so the place was promoting it like mad and I instantly bought every action figure from the movie. I had the chief and even the fat villain (if you don't get them all it's not a complete collection!) None of this is terribly relevant, but I was thinking about all this and went looking for a picture of Pocahontas and found this strange image of the people that dress up as the Disney characters at Disneyland:

I mean what is going on in this picture? Why is Miko checking out Pocahontas's chest? Wildly inappropriate and disturbing.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009


I must go on a rant right now because I am so frustrated with everything today. I will now complain in an organized manor:

1. Had to go buy some special calculator today for Quantitative Methods class and I tried to find the address where I was told I could find this special calculator. Walked around in the snow for 20 minutes unable to find this place and then when I asked other people in the class if they found it they responded, "Really you went up 27th street and didn't find it? Right next to the shady nail place? I mean it was RIGHT THERE."

2. Walking home tonight at 9:30 pm from class in the cold slush and ice from the snow that fell all day, I was being careful to not fall on the slippery sidewalk. Until I came to a corner outside a mini mart where someone had dumped a bag of crushed ice on the corner. I tried to avoid the ice cubes, but ended up tripping and falling down. Ouch.

3. Getting in elevator a guy makes an open ended comment of "It's really bad out there." I respond with, "Yeah, I just fell outside, I slipped on some ice." He responds with, "Ha! Really, you know someone is going to put that shit on youtube. Someone had to see that with their camera phone."

4. FAFSA. The biggest headache every year and I never get anything because some awful technical glitch seems to ALWAYS happen. Even though I am in some dire need of some funding, still no support from the agonizing form. However, I can be comforted by the fact that people at $40,000 a year private schools in Manhattan who have triple digit "allowances" and lied on their FAFSA form and got financial aid.

5. Did my 2008 taxes. I think that speaks for itself even if it was a 1040EZ, it still managed to be a huge pain.

6. I still haven't gotten a job. Beyond depressing.

7. People that you try to make plans with and just flat out don't respond. Just say you are busy! I mean is that too hard?

8. The weather just in general I am hating the cold and how it dries out my skin.

9. The internet isn't working (or when it does it's at a snail's speed) and now I am being forced to plug in the too short internet cord to my lap top.

10. FAFSA really deserves to be on this list twice. So does not having a job still but let's keep it an even 10.

The volcano is my frustration erupting.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Wall Flower

I have always been a fan of what I refer to as "fake art". Basically any mass produced art such as anything that is sold at Urban Outfitters on a large canvas. I LOVE that stuff! When I moved into my dorm this year I wanted to decorate it (so it doesn't look like an asylum with the large white walls) so I went to look at all the Urban Outfitters home decor stuff and was naturally instantly in lover. However, given that I am on the college student budget I couldn't exactly convince myself to fork over the cash for what I liked. Particularly a set of 10 frames that were $50 and came in various sizes so you could put your own pictures in and have this little super hip art display. Loved it.

I knew I really shouldn't spend the money on it though and figured Hey I can do that without their frames! I went to Bed, Bath and Beyond and picked up some cheap frames of various sizes (saving money!). I then went about tearing out all pages from my magazine collection. I hoard every magazine I have ever gotten. It's really kind of insane, but I just can't stand to let them go! I used to not be able to take pages out either I was so neurotic about keeping them perfect, at least now I have evolved to using them as a resource. I pulled out some ads and photo shoots I liked and framed them all and wa la! Fake art! I was very pleased with myself.

I kept up the same pictures all semester and now that I am back for a new semester figured it was time for a change so I just changed all the pictures out. They are just random images I liked and I tried to get a good mixture of black and white pictures as well as ones with pops of color. I posted the whole display above and then included close ups of all the pictures below. My camera isn't very good so they aren't very good quality pictures, but it will give you the general idea. There was a lot of issues of using the flash and it reflecting or not using the flash and it being very out of focus. Again, hope you get the gist of it.

All Pancakes and Pants

I am in quite the fabulous mood today. Despite being unemployed things are going okay. Had lots of fun last night watching X-Men Last Stand and 21 Jump Street (that is the old tv show from the 80's that Johnny Depp was in. There is never enough denim you can wear in that show)until the wee hours of the night. Actually it was like 11:30, but that's late enough! I'm old, I get tired. Oh, before that I went to the gym and I was so pleased because the boom box was not blasting in there. I hate it when I go to the gym and the gym staff is sitting there at the desk blasting the boom box or blasting it while they go around and be skeezy to you while you are trying to work out. I fail to see why you would hit on anyone when they are all sweaty and red faced. I mean could it really be hot to see me in sweat pants all red faced and sweaty with my hair in some crazy head band?! It was some reasonable person working the desk this time though and I got to listen to my iPod with out blasting it. Honestly why there even is a boom box I don't know. Everyone girl in there has an iPod! It's bad for your ears to have to crank it up and drown on out the stereo you know! Anyways, later got some ice cream during the movie and was hyper for ages as a result. Still all good fun. After the movie talked on the phone with that boy and that was quite nice as well especially since this morning I got a nice text about how nice it was to talk on the phone. Smiles all around.

Had breakfast with Brett and Miya this morning (I watched the Movie with them last night too). I am so glad Brett has come back around too! I missed hanging out with him. To sum that whole thing up he sort of stopped being a friend to me last semester because he started hanging out with this girl that used to be a very good friend of mine and they both with "New York crazy" as I would like to call it. They just became obsessed with being cool and going out and all that and I am truly not into all that fakeness. Going out is fine and hanging out with different people is too, but it's wrong to put other people down and be rude to them because you have suddenly had a drastic personality change that is not for the better. Anyways, Brett has come back around to sanity and it's good to have him back because I missed him and his clever little remakes. Who else is going to tell me to put some pants on? Brett claims I never wear pants in other news, but truly I do. It is true however most likely I am wearing something else instead. I don't know why I went into all that.

Had pancakes for breakfast and they were yum yum. Came back and cleaned the whole dorm room. My room mate doesn't clean and she was still at school a week after I left for break which resulted in it being absolutely filthy when I came back. I cleaned the kitchen, bathroom, dishes, floors, dusted and took out the recycling and trash though and now it's all sparkly. Yay! Makes me feel like I can breathe again. Went to the gym yet again and I am over all quite pleased. I have mass amounts of homework to do, but I'll get to that in a little bit. I am contemplating dropping a class possibly from my schedule. 21 credits and 8 classes is a lot! Especially since 4 are upper division for me. I might be in over my head this time around because I feel a little overwhelmed already. I'm going to give it a little time though and see because I still have time to decides. Quitting things makes me uncomfortable though so I might not drop any. Just a thought. I would like to add I wouldn't be behind by dropping a class I would still be ahead so I am not being irresponsible if I do drop one. I added that for me more than anything.Hahaha.

Going to Anthony's house warming party tonight. Should be fun haven't seem him in a long time and it's weird not having him just two floors below me anymore. I actually have to make an effort and commute to see him now. Hahaha. I look forward to hanging out with him though. Must try to get more work done though. Maximum productivity continues.

Tomorrow Charlie, Brett, Miya and I are having a Superbowl themed party. We are the least likely people to watch the super bowl since it took a long time to figure out it was even on and who was even playing. Still we are all cooking something and will probably watch it for about 20 minutes before we get bored with it. The spirit is there all the same! Go Football! That's what the Superbowl is right? Football? Ha, just kidding I know that much.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Some New Things

I have recently been introduced to Kombucha which is a herbal tea made from Mushrooms and it's amazing! I know it sounds strange, but it's extremely good for you and tastes good. It's kind of an acquired taste, but I suggest everyone try it. I've had the original flavor and the ginger flavor so far and have liked both a great deal.

Also would like to note that I got some free loot at my internship today. My boss gave me two pairs of shoes and two scarves. One of the shoes was Charlotte Ronson, yipee! Working for free has it's perks for sure.


I was watched the Screen Actors Guild Awards (SAG) last Sunday because I love award shows and all the dresses ect. I was reading online though that the dress Angelina Jolie wore was worn backwards! Which by the way was intentional so that she could show off her back tattoos better. I just loved that for some reason. The dress was by Max Azria and below is the intended style of wearing the dress and how Angelina wore it.

I wasn't the one to discover this or anything, I just thought it was interesting and I for one thought it looked pretty good backwards.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Ready, Set, Go.

I knew that I would regret taking 10 hours of classes on Tuesday, but after I finished class today I was not only very hungry but also felt like my brain was completely fried. Started out with speech class. I am taking public speaking mainly because it is required, but I was dreading it because as much as I talk, I actually hate public speaking. The class wasn't so bad though my professor is quite funny and looks as well as sounds just like Will Farrell. He admitted this because it's truly startling how closely he resembles him.

Had a little break and then went to Japanese class. I am taking beginners Japanese even though I have taken it before. I didn't want to take an upper level class because I am terrified of speaking in Japanese and I couldn't force myself to take a more advanced class. However, today we learned how to write about 10 Hiragana some useful greetings and phrases. Hiragana is one of the Japanese alphabets used (it's the most basic out of the 3. Katakana and Kanji are the other two) for those that don't know. I know my Hiragana, so it was a very slow and boring 4 hours and the professor is on to me I am sure of it. I said I had taken Japanese before, but I said I had only taken a year. Yes, I lied I have taken 4 years. Clearly she suspects I am more advance because she kept having me do absurd things like "Count to 10!" We hadn't even learned the numbers yet. I knew them, except I forgot 8 because I got all nervous. See, this is why I am taking Japanese level 1! I get overly stressed when I have to speak it! By the way 8 is Hachi.

Quantitative Methods followed and the professor made it clear we were staying for the full 4 hours. And we did. Math is not exactly my strong point, but I was so tired already my brain was struggling to keep up. 10 hours of class every day is exhausting.

Monday, January 26, 2009

Oatmeal is the Lonely Person Food

I got up at 6 am and it was pitch black outside. I couldn't see anything as I stumbled around to get to the shower. Now I am just so thrilled about getting up at 6 am in pure blackness every Monday! Yay for 8 am classes! I will probably regret the selection of this class for the rest of the semester. In fact I already do.

Since it's the first day and all I am hoping we just get out early so I can come back and do some napping. This may be early to everyone else too, but let's just keep in mind I just came from the west coast and it feels like 3 am not 6 am when I was forced to get up. Still feel sick, but took Vitamin C and am drinking some cold remedy type tea to go along with it. My immune system better kick into gear because I don't have time for this "I'm sick" thing.

Eating some oatmeal and listening to "My Man" by Barbara Streisand from the movie Funny Girl on my iPod. Babs is amazing, she should have won in Oscar for that movie. Oh wait, she did! I eat oatmeal or granola basically every morning. I love the stuff and need the basic element of it because my stomach is weak at eating things in the morning. I swear oatmeal is like the officially lonely person food. "Comfort" food they say, nice way of calling it lonely person food. I have a desire to watch The Way We Were now. More Babs. More Depressing Babs films. She is just amazing. How I became a Barbara Sterisand fan I don't even know, just am.

Start my new internship at noon today. Excited to see how that goes and actually get started. Still hoping a nap opportunity comes along before I have to go, otherwise I'll go straight from class and won't get done until 5 o'clock. Which is what it will be like normally, so mind as well start adjusting.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Crepes and Advil

First day of school tomorrow. I know I've been on break forever and all, but I am not sure I am physically prepared to start school. I have suddenly become ill which I think is largely due to flight I took to New York. Airplanes are basically just like a jar of disease. Not to mention my clock is off due to the 3 hour time difference I am supposed to miraculously adjust to by tomorrow.

For my final day of freedom went to Charlie's with Miya and Alex for crepes for breakfast! Charlie made crepes and I "assisted" (spilled flour all over the stove and stirred the batter). Crepes were amazing though and we hung out just chatting it up until about 2 pm.

Went back to the dorms and was rather exhausted. This sickness thing has really gotten to me. Spent remainder of the day applying for jobs online. Fantastic fun, not. Have to do what I have to do though. Hopefully I'll start hearing back this week at some point. I applied everywhere so I should hear something! Also some people have ridiculous applications. Like 5 page surveys on whether or not you agree or strongly disagree with slapping co-workers that make you mad. I mean really?

Do you get angry easily = Strongly Agree
Do you get violent towards people when they upset you or disagree with you = Strongly Agree

You are going to hire me now right? If you have to answer those questions and think about it just stop filling out the application and save yourself the time. They aren't going to hire you.

Tried to go to bed but felt very warm (possible fever? So annoying!) and was just over all uncomfortable so I had to run out and by some Advil across the street. Best part was as I was heading back I hear three girls behind me whispering and one of them says, "She is like wearing genie pants.." Uh no bitches I am wearing sweat pants tucked into my boots with my coat and hat on because it's freezing out! It also happens to be 11 o'clock at night and I hadn't intended on going out again until I started to be physically very ill! Thank you though for helping further support what lovely people go to my school.

Back to Reality

It's been almost a month pretty much since I last posted. I kind of took a hiatus from the digital world while I was away on break from school in Seattle. Now I am back in New York City and back to reality though I enjoyed the break from the world while I had it.

Starting things off by saying I am not quite sure where I am going from here, but I'm confident I might find some direction. Things are kind of tough right now as I got laid off from my job and must now pursue finding a new one. Must work to feed myself, harsh reality right there. It isn't the best time to try and find a job due to the current economical climate, but I'll do my best. I am feeling optimistic about the whole thing mainly because I really do need to find a job. Let the search begin.

It was great to see all my friends at school in New York coming in (even though I hadn't slept in pretty much 48 hours and looked quite disastrous). It's funny settling back in to the routine of school again and the city, but at least I have the wonderful opportunity of going to school in a place like New York City. Not a lot of people get to do things like that, so I am aware I'm a lucky one.

With all the positives of being in New York and back in the big city, I know it's going to take some time for me to adjust after the break. I was living in a bit of a la la land and I wasn't sure I wanted to wake up from it. I feel over all people think I am being foolish and wasting my emotions, but that's not for anyone to decide but me. For now I just love an orange T-shirt and 1 am on Saturday and there's no changing my mind on that.

Re-arranged the furniture in my room which was a goal of mine for the semester. Not bad for only being here one day. Given it was a very small goal.

As for anything to come....I guess I am just going to see how it goes.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Another Post. A Different Year.

It's 2009 now. It's pretty much been a year since I actually posted on this blog, but that's not completely my fault. I have been rather social lately, but if you had no internet (basically the worst internet connection known to man kind is more like it because yes I do in fact have some connection or how else would I be writing this now?) you would escape your house too. I could be reading, but I haven't been and that's that. I think it's because I just read two really good books and my current read is not at the same level and I'm kind of not encouraged to read it yet. It's a comedy that's like Watership Down how in it's a story from the point of view of animals, except in this case it's sheep and not bunnies. I like sheep a lot though, so seemed more appealing. I don't generally enjoy comedies though for some reason. I like reading depressing books as I said and this is light hearted and "fun" and for some reason I lack interest for that reason.

I could make some profound statements about the new years or changes I want to make or reflections I have, but I feel like it's a few days passed now and I kind of missed the dead line on all that at this point. Not that I had anything particularly profound to say in the first place. After not writing for so long I end up having had too much going on to have enough time to catch up and write about all of it. Then I get very stressed about not updating and have avoidance issues so I just won't update because I feel I am too far behind already.

I started this blog for my own entertainment, but sometimes I am not even sure what direction I should take it in or what the purpose of it even is. Am I entertained or just stressed out by it? I am stressed out by everything though. Letting my neurotic-ness get in the way isn't helpful to the process. Not that it really matters, I think I am the only one that even reads it and I am writing the pointless postings as it is. I think the main issue I have is that I enjoy writing about my thoughts and comments on different unimportant things, but at the same time I am very private about my personal life and every time I have something that might actually be meaningful or revealing in any way I decide I can't actually post it and what good is that. There are lot of things I would like to share and ask out openly to the virtual world, but in the end the critique I might get back from my friends and family that actually read the blog (2 friends and like my mother, thanks guys! I love that you read this garbage.) I am not sure I feel like hearing. I would just ask them directly in person and if I don't have the courage to do that what's the point in writing it and posting it online? I prefer to keep my life private. My business is my business. I want to share I guess I'll just have to wait.

On another vague note I have been very happy lately and I think keeping it to myself makes me feel like it won't go away. Plus I feel slightly guilty about feeling happy about things right now. It's limited and has an expiration date on it for sure, so for now I am just going to enjoy it while I have it. I'll have months to wallow or whatever I feel like doing later. For now I'm happy.

Planning on going to spend time with my mother for the next 3 days. I haven't seen where she has moved too and I've only seen her about 25 hours in the past year, so I am pretty excited to see her. I am going to see her new house and all so that should be fun. However, it started snowing again today...Seattle the city that never snows is suddenly has Alaskan winters. Yes, I am aware Alaskan winters are more severe, but the snow is no longer "cute" at this point it's just inconvenient. If it interferes with me getting to go see my mother I'll be even more annoyed.

I'm finished posting for now. My next message may be sporadic yet again, but I'll try to keep up.

Current Listenings: "I'm A Lady" by Santogold. Great song, give it a listen. I find it particularly hilarious because a friend of mine is always saying I should act more like a lady. This one's for you.

Side note: The type writer image is purely for educational value. I couldn't think of a picture relevant to my post, so I thought I would just give you something that might actually enrich you rather than just my rantings.